Hey guys,

   This is the last day of my work in this company. I am going to leave this place by the evening. I aint feel bad or having any dumb sentiments with that. Even a friend of mine too worried about my resignation, but still i am not. Why would i worry about that. I believe in myself and i hope i'd get a better job than the current one and next time i'll make sure that i get paid by an decent amount , might be higher than my current pay.

  OK, other than this nothing special to say. Yeah, one thing. I am leaving this city and go to my native village in a week time. I feel so happy that i am going to meet my grandma and grandpa, ofcourse my mom and dad. ok guys. see ya soon. My next post will be from my home .

 Yes, i am 'bout to sit in my home for next two or three months or till i get a new job. So i planned to kill my time. So i'll buy a console and start playing all classic games. thats it. no future plans or whatsoever. I hate fucking plans, coz they always messed up or either fucked up. So why do i bother about that shit.

 Guys, i feel the days i am going to sit in my home as vacation instead of considering it as a shame on me. Why would i feel shame? I dont left my job. Since the company dont have any projects they ask me to leave the company. So i am just an victim of this. As far as i heard, there is no vacancies currently in IT fields. So better i take some rest and then start from the beginning. What say?

  While i am clear all these days i got stuck with a situation. I am thinking of start a new company along with three of my friends and i got a big oppose from my family from who i need help. I am financially backward now, so no option other than begging for money with my parents. I ashamed of my impotency in finance, but had no option left. They just want me not to involve in business right now. They think that i am not so well sculpted to handle situations esp that often occurs with business. I have a hope in myself and ofcourse with my friends, but still my parents not interested with my deal.

  So what should i do? I am bit coherant in taking decisions when my family involves in that matter. They said i always took wrong decision, (which is not 100% true, i once took a wriong decision and faced the consequences) and finally i will be back off with that idea. My friends were not going to drop the idea even i am not with them. As their parents believe them. This doesnt mean my parents not believe me, but they worrying a lot. Which is a bit annoying for me. Cause everyone has their own turn-over and i think its mine.

  So guys, what will i do? Or tell me what shall i do? I dont want to hurt my parents , on the other hand i dont want to leave that chance which could make me as a person who is financially well. I am in a dilemma for sure...

   Nowadays i am looking so clear, yup, with no more confusion that's dizzy around my head. I watch movies,working,playing and enjoying my time. Eventhough i still hadn't find any job,i wont feel thats a big deal.

  I feel kinda i missed the tblog. Then i am here now. Will never leave tblog.See ya soon..

 I was fully stuffed with lot of problems and wont even space to breath. Yesh, thats absolute truth about me, as of now. I am going to leave my job and since its a big recession time, getting job here in IT field,is goddamn impossible, atleast for now.   I dont have any idea about what to do next?. Still i have some project offers from various individuals over various countries which will enuff for me to fill my wallet for another four months, but what next? I need to re-think about that.

  Now, i wont step back into my company or wont go back and join with my parents,as they too in some bad economic condition.Which is really pathetic. Now its hard time for me to took some decision which may change my life. Yes, i have some big plans in my mind,but i need more money to get it into action.So things start getting worse here. But i need to implement my plans, instead of whatever problems that around me. Now tell me what i can do? Either go as in the way in which my instincts guide me, or stick with the traditional thing,say get another job which will feed you atleast. Will let you know once i decide?

  Yes, you are right. My ex-girlfriend may be a bitch or more than that. We both had broken our relationship few months before,say 6months or above. And for the past 6 months i even forgot to remember her name too. But all of a sudden, i heard of a rumour that she spread and was shocked at the news.

 She told everyone in her office that i loved her at the time of our relationship and even i love her now too.lol. i fell on my feet by laughing out loud but suddenly comes with a striking thought that why would one drag a person, who is not involved with them currently. Is she still wants to screwed up by me?. If so then i am ready to screw up, but not to love her.

   Even though when i am in a tight relationship, i just want to screw her up and not more than that. Because simply she is sexy, gorgeous and more structured, who makes anyone get tempted easily but not having any special thing to make us fall in love with her.Ofcourse i like her tits(were nice ones and even she too feel proud of it..lol..) but, does that mean i love her?

  I am expecting an oppurtinity to talk with her about the rumour. I come to know this through my friend who is also working in that company with her. For you info, she also told everyone that my friend(a.k.a her collegue) was so bad and he only loves to fuck girl and not more than that. May be that true with her case, but not for all. If i find a perfect girl for me, i better love her rather trying to screw her and leave her like a tissue in the toilet.

  OK guys.Now please tell me why should she spread such rumours and make everyone to gossip about me. What the hell does she got from this? Is the girl is kind of psychopath, who feels happy by spreading rumours like this. I am bit confused but say, this doesnt affect me at all. Its simply a great joke make ROFLMAO!!!! Buts just now started to thinking about a man who is going to marry that bitch. Oh! geesh, he get screwed up her, instead he do...lol..

  Nowadays i am getting into trouble very easily. With just an small incident that happened a while ago, my company was completely misjudged myself and even wants me to throw out of the company. I am expecting this to be happen very soon, say within two to three months. I dont care about losing the job but i feel bad that they wont know me at all, if i go out.

  Aside, healthwise too i am too weak. I am getting very lazy face, as i am watching the computers all over the day and even lost sleep over few days. Its better that i loose a job instead of feeling such fucking pain all the day.

  I am eagerly looking forward my termination day and i am sure i'll celebrate that day, for let me free from those itches and pains. After that, i need to find a good job, that couldn' involve any computer related work. :D . Eventhough i studied computer as my major in the college, even i took the course on my will, i started hating it now. Still i know that the possibility of getting a job w/o any computer work is damn bad idea, but i need to.

  Lets see what the fuck is going to happen. Either the company throw me out or , i terminate the company. :D . Anyhow even i wont feel comfortable for browsing and blogging too. Thats a bit pain in my eyes that make me feel asleep all over the day, even at office. Guys, the itching is started. Bye guys.

 I am back from the trip by Yesterday morning. And still my heart floats around my family, esp with my grandpa.. Its a bit bad to see him with no legs i was completely went blank when i see him first. I had no words to talk to him.I just cried and after then i realize that atleast he is with us.

 The days went quick then i expected. Today i feel very guilty. For the past few months i had a thought which dumps me in every aspect. Why i leave my family? for this fucking piece of shitty money? I know thats a dumb question to ask but iot screws me real bad. I also knew the answer. Thats just ignore the question. :D

  As i said in my earlier posts, my grandpa is getting better and he feel good. So i think i am gonna see him. So i took three day leave and leaving the city by tomorrow night. But i am just feel bad to face him, as once i see him without his legs,then i sure broke out.

  No words to explain and i had only tears left to pour. I just want to say that i am going to see him. Thats it. bye guys

Do you know,

  Lot of problems for a  youth was really not good. Yes, with my company i am facing lot of problems. I am the one who responsible for all happenings.They suspect me for whatever happens. But, ofcourse i may be the reason for one of those problems, i just feel bad.

 On the other side, my eyes were start itching and feel irritated with that.You know, watching monitors all over the day was real pain in my ass. I just want to go somewhere for some weeks, where there is no TV,computer or any gadgets and i feel good when i reach such place.

  OK friends.I am short of time . so i leave this place, without any intention to leave.

Bye